turned off my phone for a week, discovered the peace in my own heart

it is certainly not everyday that we find ourselves capable or willing to survive without technology and our devices, yet being able to detach from their overwhelming grip is vastly becoming something that we all crave.

I am not diminishing the fact that so many of us rely on our phones for connection, business, self-expression, security, and education. I am certainly not immune to that, and find myself thankful for the gift of being able to be seen and heard with minimal effort.

however, I would also ask - when was the last time that you felt connected to yourself in such a way that there was nothing left to prove, nothing left to get, no one else to be, only pure heart-bursting happiness for all that already exists?

totally present in the moment without trying to translate that into anything else – online, in perpetuity, or to the world. maybe you remember, or maybe you cannot relate.

have you ever had the experience of being powerfully emotionally moved, feeling total clarity or bliss, lost in time, space, wonder, and awe. some might call it a spiritual, magical, or miraculous coincidence. in psychology – a peak experience, where one has become self-actualized and experiences a transformation. I found home in my heart. these experiences that are rare or fleeting become even more challenging to realize when we live for the external world – for the next, for someone else, for something to be prove. the danger in our common understand of the pursuit of happiness.

 

takeaways:

 

I. yes, we live in a world that makes it challenging to let go when we have to much to do. no, it is not normal to just put your phone in a drawer for a week and not expect any consequences. YET, it is possible and the mental-spiritual rewards are endless. we get a break from comparison, expectations, addictive thoughts, and needing to know. what is left after all of that is just you. and space. you choose consciously how you want to fill that space, I see gratitude and joy.

II. what if in the process of re-claiming our hearts, magical moments become a side effect of the work – would you take it on? in my journey, it has been meditation, yoga, travel and coaching that has brought me to my divine nature daily. maybe start by considering where a safe place is for you to unwind and experience connection to yourself. you might try a no technology rule for the first 30 minutes of the day and last hour before bedtime. maybe you work up to meditation, taking a week off of social media, and a phone-less vacation.

travel is truly a gift that never ceases to provide me with inspiration and perspective. what seems real - like it needs to get done or totally matters or else I fail, starts to disintegrate with distance from the automaticity of my external world. when I take on adventures, it is as if I have a new pair of eyes - my horizons get widened, I see the expansiveness of what it means to be human, and what truly matters to me. there is truth and light in what at home can seem like a black and white world. to me, there is always opportunity for transformation when we travel mindfully, noticing our interconnectedness as beings on the planet, tapping in to what sources us, and the power and peace that exist within. I hope that you get to experience one day, the peak of enoughness that you already are.

reprogram your mind, remember your worth

the mind is a powerful muscle.

it can be used to create success,

it can be used to sabotage joy,

and most of the time we are operating under it’s automated command, forgetting that we have any responsibility to choose.

that does not make us wrong, or success impossible, but there is an opportunity that we as a collective seem to be missing:

the ability to fully enjoy our lives.

we have pretty shitty beliefs.

I’d like to start by saying that we must remember that we are amazing human beings with a very old brain designed to keep us safe and allow us to survive. even though fear gets a bad reputation, it does what it can to protect our lives, and for that we can still be grateful. it is how we evolved. ironically, however, these life-preserving subconscious thoughts are actually preventing us from truly living now.

basically, since we were born, we have been downloading information and storing it in our subconscious mind. our subconscious allows us to make sense of reality without having to relearn experiences over and over. it permanently stores everything that has ever happened to you, your parents, and their parents, and their parents...a memory bank of all of our thoughts which become hardwired into our brain synapses. the thoughts then become subconscious truths, habits, a blueprint for how we respond to the world. yes, this saves us time and energy from having to think consciously every time we encounter a red light or need to blink, but what then happens to our life? we take on more, stop at the first signs of discomfort, multitask, get distracted, get stuck. we start to believe everything the mind tells us because the brain has proven that it is very smart and highly functioning even when we are not actively trying.

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thoughts like ‘you are fat, ugly, a failure, worthless, bad, unhappy’ all feel like truths because the mind tell us so.

we stop believing in our worth and our purpose.

we stop intentionally designing our lives from our heart and soul (because money, because time, because risk etc.)

our brains become boss.

our thoughts need to be reprogrammed.

but why would we want to reprogram our brains if they keep us safe?

because what if safety is actually an illusion, a self-imposed trap, a limit….

what if a fulfilling life actually means making a commitment to being limitless, responsible, successful, and happy?

we can all train our brains to think, believe, and behave in ways that better serve our lives. that is a major part of what I stand for as a coach and a yoga teacher. when you have a mindset that what you are doing is going to work no matter what, you can propel yourself to accomplish anything. think of how many people value inspirational quotes - it's basically 90% of instagram. to me that is a sign that we as a collective consciousness are craving intentionality and joy, but that is only the first step: awareness.

if we are ready for a breakthrough, to release negativity and suffering, we must actually commit to disrupting these old patterns and habits which run super deep. it takes discomfort, resolve, and practice. it takes accountability, humility, and asking for support. but on the other side are new empowering beliefs that lead us to what we ultimately want. a beautiful life waiting to unfold.

Carianna Hebert
modern romanticism : a memoir

'the artist's feelings is his law'

the nature of romanticism can be described as such:

a preference for intuition and emotion over rationalism, a priority over emotions and feelings, self-expression via storytelling and the arts, originality and imagination, the deep desire for perpetual movement and change - to be unbound, and an aesthetic fondness for the beauty of nature.

the story of romanticism is so imprinted in my being.

you see it in the way I teach, the way I write, the way I love, the way I photograph.

I can only imagine how many lifetimes I have lived to be here today to embody this message.

it reminds me of the lessons I first really heard through my yoga practice - that I am the artist and creator, and my feelings impact this world I see around me - the law. my injured right shoulder reminds me every time I step on my mat. the hatred I have felt towards my own body and self, those emotions drove me to push harder. to be aggressive. to perform for the ego and ignore intuitive sense of love and compassion. it has taken me until recently to be able to practice powerful yoga again without falling into the trap of my darkest feelings and further creating violence. my mat has held me accountable to heal myself and shift my emotions, and I teach to inspire the same reflections for others.

be honest, if our mats give us the space to process and see all of our emotions - how do you choose to respond? do you ignore, rebel, or listen? can you be with the discomfort of anything (imperfection, anger, joy) and still love yourself? love is the emotion with the highest vibration, the power to transform any other feeling. what if we created all movement from there? 

it has me wonder, what is there to lose by living this way?

why not put on those rosy heart shaped glasses and fall in love with the world?

for me, romanticism has been key to the unfolding of so many miraculous events.

and the theme song to my everyday life.

the reason I surround myself with flowers.

the meaning behind my career.

when I know how I want to feel and prioritize that pursuit, I am in touch with my happiest self. I am creating from a place of authentic joy. I am inspired and fueled by my own emotions.

I am a modern day romantic, unbound, limitless, who loves stories of love and the aesthetics of nature.

 

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a wanderer's guide to an unconventional life

if we were all meant to walk the same path,

why would we have our own two feet?

I have this crazy idea.

what if we all got to do exactly what we loved everyday and that was enough?

what if ‘work’ was actually the source of joy and we were all compensated for our passions?

can you even imagine?

I can.

people smiling and laughing and in love. there is relaxation and ease in the way we move. dedication and discipline is sourced from the heart space. pressure is released - a bubble of stress, confusion, anger, anxiety, aloneness popped. 

I feel lighter already. It reminds me of how I want to feel.

I understand it may come across as a more of fairy tale, a romantic spin on the dark world we live in, disconnected from 'reality.' living a life off the beaten path is not for everyone and it requires a deep desire to want to feel fully alive and brimmed with joy now. it takes knowing the self, breaking free from fear, wandering into the unknown, and strength in commitment. as we get closer to taking a leap and start venturing out on our own, the voices of society chime in louder: like 'hey, don't forget that I'm judging you and there's money and responsibility and security to worry about - you can't go pursue your passion and have all of these things too, that is selfish.' 

we learn at an early age that success comes from having a full bank account or else what the hell are we doing? trust me, I see am confronted with that question a lot. the - how will you retire and go on vacation and have a family if you don’t have a steady job and 401K now?

ah ha, well all of these stories are not necessary. I have chosen my own way and you can too.

life fact: you are the master creator of your paradise.

So, what would it take for you to believe in your own process? to believe that you deserve to do the things that make you feel light in your body and full in your heart...that you deserve to create your own path and leave behind the footprints of your legacy...maybe it still comes through a career, but it arrives from a stirring deep within.

try this:

take off your shoes and ground the soles of your feet into the earth.

feel the peace, serenity, and stillness emanating from your inner world.

welcome yourself home.

listen to the voices that speak from within.

give yourself permission to trust you.

what you would be doing right now if you already had everything you needed?

trust that you do not have to wait until to have that life now.

trust that whatever is calling you forward is not already being done.

it is your soul’s unique purpose to follow this path.

you are exactly where you are meant to be.

you are needed.

it is not too late.

not today or tomorrow.

 

twirl under the stars to no music.

drive a new route home.

take a trip to a foreign land.

move less or move more.

let your soles be your guide.

 

practice breaking free from the rules,

so you can go create your own.

 

happy wandering

xx

cupid's golden arrow, and the history of love

valentine's day is ahead...

and every year the cute cards and sweetheart candies, chocolates, love letters, and roses bring about a renewed awareness of love. each February we are confronted again by our existent or non-existent relationship status, the strength of our practice of self love, and loads of expectation. a tradition that nearly fosters the opposite of love - lack. we feel alone, unlovable, undisciplined, unconfident to make the first move. 

and with all of the pressure comes doubt. and with doubt comes a heck of a lot of questions.

in my conversations this time of year, I hear a common concern. questions of: how to love, who to love, what to love, am I getting enough love? should I give a gift, or withhold in case he doesn't?

and yet again, the brilliant truth is that the only answer to any of these questions has to come from within.

BUT what if love is an infinite flow of energy that is always present? a universal consciousness. 

yeah? ok good. because it is. 

now that we have agreed on this awareness, we can take action: you ready?

starting today, I invite you to give yourself permission to be in the flow of love without controlling it.

what do I mean by that, you say?

well, we spend so much time protecting our hearts that we physically and energetically stop the flow of love, to us and from us. in order to keep love present, we have to continuously give and receive. we have to let go of the tit for tat kind of love and allow for the circulation of love. 

so - if you want love, learn to give love. 

even if it's first, before you know it's safe.

remember cupid? the guy with the magical golden arrows? he could make anyone fall in love with the shot of an arrow. he set a clear intention (love), directed his energy at a target, and sent it out into the universe. personally, I think he's a genius. he knew that when the act of giving love is joyful and unconditional from the heart, it will flourish. when we choose to raise our vibrations of love, and send that high frequency of energy out, we not only elevate our Being, but effortlessly open the doors to a higher state of receiving. 

so yes, love and valentine's can have a material expression. I love treats and romantic getaways, don't get me wrong. but what we have available to us in any moment is a universal love consciousness. an infinite flow.

significant other or best friend, gifts or quality time, chocolate or sweetheart, it's your choice to show up AS LOVE OR AGAINST IT. 

thoughts?

happy sunday, cupids.

xx

Carianna HebertComment
hushing happiness, the subdued voice of bliss

every day I converse with people about their relationship to happiness.

I assume you do too. 

we talk about what we want, what's missing, share stories and experiences, make decisions about what to do, wear, and eat, complain about the weather, compliment each other, blame each other, want things, let go of things - all connected to this desire to feel good.

it's a hot topic, the pursuit of happiness.

and the funny thing is, we all act like we don't know where to find it. 

so here we are on a rainy sunday afternoon, writing, drawing, wearing pjs, drinking coffee - just doing the simple things that bring us joy. it's a great day, I am deep in the work flow this week and loving life. but if someone asked me 'hey, how are you doing' it might not seem like that is so. or even close. 

you see, I sometimes do this thing, and I am starting to see it in common conversation more and more. as soon as I start to say out loud that, yes, I am happy, I am really great, I feel like I have never had so much success in my life, my creativity is on fire, I have stories and wisdom to share with others, people fully support me, I get paid to do what I love - I start to shove it all back down my throat.

it's like the voldemort of emotions - happiness, she who shall not be named. 

if someone asks you how you are doing, what is your response? I typically hear some variation of ‘I’m good...but' or ‘I’m fine?’ in a voice that trails off into uncertainty or doubt. there may even be a complaint or two about what could be going better. some of us respond from the 'my life is messy AF' inner gremlin because that is more relatable than some crazy person who claims they have it all together. right?

it has become more comfortable for us to mute our happiness than to speak our truth.

and it is this hushed happiness that has us shying away from even allowing joy in our lives. we downplay what is going well because happiness is power, and power is scary to others. 'don't be a threat,' the mind says, but every time we downplay our joy, we confuse the signals in our brain. our neurons are smiling, but our mouth short circuits them. burying our happiness is numbing our senses and keeping us small. it allows us to stay in pursuit and unfulfilled, but who wants to play that game anymore?

not me.

are you happy? say so. whenever you feel it. as often as you can.

weekly mantra: admit to your contentment so it can grow

xx